38. Buddhahood - Ultimate Love

I felt light but there were still some questions in some corners of my heart, these were the after-effects of unrequited love. I expressed my mind unconditionally,
“Why is it that even when Ansh has left me, I don’t feel any hatred towards her? I should have felt that she betrayed me but I didn’t feel that way, I don’t know why?” I asked and Tazzy responded spontaneously,
“That means only one thing, that, you have tasted the ultimate love, the only love that exists. There is nothing called true love or false love, there is no categorisation as such, there cannot be different forms of love, love is one and the only one, either it can be or it cannot be. How does one know whether love is or it is not, the test is very simple, see if there is any condition in what you are thinking is your love for someone, say for Ansh or Sehej, if there is a condition like the condition that she should marry you or that she should also love you back, even if there is one condition, it is not love it is a desire and when the desire is not fulfilled there is a vacuum inside you, a void. This void has to be filled with something; it gets filled with anger, hatred for that girl, with revenge. But you are the blessed one you have passed this test, there is no condition in your love for the girl you love, what you have tasted is love, it is not a desire, so there is no void in your heart because it is already filled, filled with that ultimate love and there is no room for anything else there no room for anger or hatred and that is why you don’t feel what you think you should have felt when Ansh has left you, you still love her the same, there is no condition in your love that if she leaves you for someone else you will stop loving her and start hating her, you are blessed and you have attained the ultimate love and now you can hate nobody leave alone that girl. This is also the explanation for your ability to fall in love with so many girls at the same time, Krishna had this ability and now you have it, you will be happy if you get any one of them and you will not be unhappy even if you don’t get any one of them, you won’t start hating them. My friend you have attained and I am so happy to see your radiant face…” said he. His words kind of made me blush, he had praised me so much, never before had my one good quality so detailed out to me. This was the first time and all his logic seemed perfect, fitted well with what I actually felt.

There were other thoughts in my mind as well and I expressed them one by one…
“But how is love possible when there is only one, you need two points between which it flows?” I couldn’t help reasoning, and he said,“Love is not a two way flow; it does not require two people to make love complete.The phenomenon of love is not that your love should flow towards the other only if others love flows towards you. You will be surprised to know that love is a singular flow; if someone has tasted ultimate love then it will flow out of him unconditionally without any condition that something should reach him in return. Some examples of ultimate love, singular flow are, the love of humans for God, the love of a small child for his dead mother, the love of nature for mankind despite they the fact they pollute her. In all these examples the two subjects are separated over great distances, God from humans, he doesn't turn back and say that 'humans I love you too' A small child from his dead mother, they can never see each other; and humans from kind nature, the distance of ignorance. But still in all these cases the love remains, because it is the ultimate love, the actual love. The ultimate love should fulfil two parameters, one it should be unconditional, and two it should be a singular flow. Your love for Ansh fulfils the first parameter, that it is unconditional, because it survives despite her cold heartedness towards you, but then it does not fulfil the second parameter, that it should be a singular flow it still requires her presence for its completion. In this regard it is different from the above three examples, where the other person's presence or recognition is not necessary, love for god, love for dead mother, nature's love for you. So now stop worrying about the distance between you and her; that you may not talk to her for years together, that she likes and marries someone else. The ultimate love transcends all this. 'Let-go' her willingly and let your love be eternal. Love like the flowers love, spreading their fragrance all over, they do in one spring what humans can't learn to do in sixty, eternal love. They are blessed and so are you just realise It.” said he and then went into meditation again.